A couple of months back a thought crossed my mind while I was rolling chapatis in the kitchen. Did I really waste my life all these 17 years? what have I done? My son was too small when I got separated from my husband. My parents had jobs to look after and my brother had just started his new job. So it was the best possible option left for me to look after the home and being able to be with my son 24x7’
I did all the household work from cooking to grocery shopping, dusting paying bills …etc. The bonus was I was able to pay full attention to my little child. I was satisfied with the life I was living at that moment. But still, I felt a kind of void inside me.
The social stigma attached to the word divorce had deeply impacted my thinking and personality. My confidence levels had fallen drastically. I felt weak and shattered. I was not the same person anymore. Even though I had earned degrees like B.com[h] and M.com, but never had the guts to try for some job, I was scared.
I was a simple girl with simple dreams. I never had big ambitions. I had always been a very family-oriented person and had always cherished the simple pleasures of life.
But then this is life… unpredictable and unwanted things do happen. No one’s life is perfect. Everyone's life is burdened with some problem or other. We all grumble and curse god and destiny for mishappenings in our life. It's human nature. Even though I had the privilege to look after my son without bothering to earn money, I was sad and unhappy. Being a single parent is tiring at times. moreover, I had never imagined that my marriage would end in a divorce. I used to look at the lines of my palms. Simple 4 lines yet so complicated life
. For all these years I had only been complaining to GOD and cursing my destiny. In the meantime, I had forgotten all about the blessings which almighty had showered on me. I was just seeing one side of the coin. God had given me wonderful parents who always loved and supported me unconditionally, A loving son who is an apple of my eye, A roof on my head … and the list goes on and on … And here I am grumbling over silly petty things This is when I realized the importance of gratitude. I learned to thank GOD each day for the life he has given me. I stopped complaining. Now whenever I feel sad or depressed instead of blaming HIM, I just start recalling the blessings which HE has showered on me. And all my sadness and negativity vanishes. I still remember the lines of the hymn taught at school “count your blessings and name them one by one and it will surprise you what the LORD hath done.”The song always cheers up my mood. It has always had a magical effect on me. There are so many people in this world who are deprived of basic necessities of life. They struggle day and night to make both ends meet. So always be grateful and thank GOD FOR EVERYTHING.